KRIS ALLEN!!!!!!! but i dont feel as happy as i shud...

ALL I CAN SAY IS AAAAAAAA!!!!!! OMG!!! Kris Allen wei!!!! I went to Midvalley to see his concert and get his signature on my album!!!

A few of us went to watch Kris Allen coz I had 2 tickets. =) HE WAS SO F***ING AWESOME!!!!! WOW!!!! THAT WAS THE BEST CONCERT I HAVE EVER BEEN TO!!!!! I really am a Kris Allen fan!!!!! HAHAAHAH!!!! anyways, we took some pictures.xD

I dont know why, but when we got through the line, and we were waiting in front of the ball room, I suddenly didnt have any mood to go for the concert.

I guess its coz of a certain sumone......
that person...........
nvm.....HAIH!!!!!!!

Anyways, while waiting for Kris Allen to show up on the stage.....I just left the ball room. I left out in tears!!!! Seriously!!!! OK!!!! I am a guy!!! but I admit!!!! I CRIED!!!!! A LOT!!!!!! imagine not crying for 9 years, and suddenly u just cant stop crying!!!!! I was on the phone with Guo Unn while I was crying....I really wish I went with Guo Unn! Its not that I am gay with him or anything.....Its because....of......sum person

HAIH!!!! FORGET IT!!!! That person made me feel so hurt that I cant even imagine the pain I went through that night. It was damn horrible!!!! Then, i went back into the concert when calmed my self down. I guess now I LOVE KRIS ALLEN EVEN MORE coz all his songs can really relate to wat happened and how I felt that time... Suddenly, JJ and Ean from Hitz.Fm started to throw the American Idol bag containing a limited edition American Idol shirt inside. I was so devastated that I was like about to give life itself.....So i held my hand out and shrugged. Suddenly, the bag just landed on my hand!!!!! WTF!!!! OMG!!!! I never expected that!!!! But, at that time...I felt no different. I was still EXTREMELY SAD!!!!!!! I was actually crying. Through the whole concert, I was crying. MY TEARS JUST KEPT ON ROLLING DOWN MY CHEEKS!!!!!! WOW!!! I AM SUCH A GIRL!!! I CANT BELIEVE I CRIED FOR...THAT PERSON!!!!! HAIH!!!

I feel LIKE AN ASSHOLE!!!! All my efforts are wasted on that person. I try so hard just to at least make an impression to that person but, haih...when he comes....that person just runs and waits for him...WOW!!!! I wish I had sumone like that!!!! IT WAS SO HURTING!!!!! I FEEL SO USED!!!! I DONT KNOW WAT TO FEEL ANYMORE!!!!!

I shud have tot it was too good to be true....I mean like come on!!!! The whole day was going so well!!!!!....until....... =( I tot I could make a good impression to....



I even planned out for this week, everyday I give sumting unexpected to.... and on friday I will tell..... everything.....but now I am having second thoughts abt it! I even drew a portrait!!!! Hu would do that ?!!! OMG!!! I drew it with so much effort that it look SO DAMN REALL!!!! I was so proud of my self for putting a 110% into it...then.....HAIH!!!! this thing happened!!!! I even twisted my finger coz I used a blade to carve the picture and words on a card i made....I was DAMN ANGRY WITH....that I just tore the card into pieces and just threw it every where...I even threw the other things as well...I baked cookies for...I just took the cookies and threw it away.....I am also not surprise if ....... threw away the portrait.... I DONT REALLY CARE!!!!! I only have one thing say...


I DONT LOVE U ANYMORE!!!!!!


Well, wat ever u were planning...It worked...u r happy but i am not! If u rejected me in another way, it wouldnt have to be like this but....I nvr expect u to this to me!!!!!!!!

I DONT WANNA SEE U EVER!!!!!

I cried the whole time...even after coming back home...I didnt even sleep....COZ I WAS CRYING!!!! even in the morning i tried not to show my dad I was crying...but I was until I reached the school canteen in the morning. Then all my friends were so worried about me. Coz my eyes were damn red coz I cried too much!!!! Then Kristy and Joshua stayed back with me until 7 pm and to Redbox with me to release STRESS!!!! ARRRRRGHHHHH!!!!!! Honestly!!! I works!!!! I am feeling much better now!!! I have no more stress d!!!! U noe y?? Coz I dont love that person d!!!! So, I am just gonna move on!!!! I have to stay strong!!!!

p.s: I shud have given up long time ago!!!! I always tot maybe wat if there was a 1% chance at least.....I could probably make it at least 60%. but i guess....I got played!!!! NVM!!!! I just keep listening to Kris Allen and hopefully I feel MUCH MUCH BETTER!!!!! =D



To a new beginning!!!